(copy/pasta'd from elsewhere)

Ha ha ha, sorry guys. I didn't forget you but lately I've not had a lot of room for, well, thoughts of any kind. This entire year was fraught with fatigue and stress that I tried to fight through, as I have in the past with such situations.

But unlike the other times I've not had the strength to endure it all, 2009 having taken most of that away from me. Fighting through proved to be more than I could handle and I've noticed that I was losing my cognition often. Sometimes it was all I could do to stay upright and mobile, but I was in such a stupor I couldn't realize it until the aftermath.

I've had a handful of nervous breakdowns, the most recent at the start of April taking a tremendous toll on my body. There was a period where I would wake up and try to be active for about 1-3 hours until I felt I needed a nap. I'd lay down and sleep for another 8+ hours compulsively. This happened for around TWO WEEKS, which I nearly slept all of. Fortunately I broke through that cycle, but every day is still fraught with chronic fatigue I cannot seem to get beyond. The more I push, the more tired I become. If I push too hard I end up losing a day or two. Oh yeah, it makes my body ache too x___x

Tests and seeing doctors have told me I'm in perfect health -- cholesterol is perfect, blood pressure is nominal, blood sugar levels are well within normal ranges. Speaking with them more we've come to that it's mostly about a long-term, unrelenting stress that has plagued my mind for a long time. Someone's been controlling my life. Things have come to a head and well... it's time I put my foot down and fight. It's the last thing in the world I want to do, and regardless the outcome my life is about to change forever.

It will take a while to regain anything x3 But if I can eliminate this burden on me then I hope I can actually start healing again. And there's still so much work that has to be done, with art and junk x3 But I really, really want to get to do it. But I have to be able to focus my thoughts on something without being worn down quickly by them =___=

Wish me luck. I'll keep you guys posted, I swars. No more dropping off the planet for months at a time x___x;